Foxy's life

Saturday fiascos

2007-05-26T15:10:00.000+01:00

Thursday something fell down our chimney. Friday we thought it had died.

But today it started scrabbling and i became nervous.. So Ben and I opened up the chimney to investigate , and ontop of the chimney balloon was an animal.
Chimney Balloon ->

We shone a torch and came to the conclusion it was a rodent. (easy enough.)

But on further inspection we realized that it was a big bird. i.e a sea gull.
I was really scared. How were we supposed to get it out????

We phoned as many services as we could think of, but eventually the fire service came to our rescue.

It turned out to be an adult sea gull. Who had fallen and got stuck.

What a fiasco. Im glad it's over.
Thanx to Ben and the fire service.

identity photo's

2007-05-20T18:04:00.001+01:00

what a year

2007-05-07T17:41:00.000+01:00

What a fun filled weekend. ONE year yesterday Ben & I got married.
It's been amazing, & i could tell you loads about it but it would take too long.

So an over view of this weekend:-

Friday we went to Ben's boss house for dinner. He is an interesting man ( More of a fruit loop than me) & that's saying something.
Alot of alchol was divoured and their were sore heads in the morning. Ha Ha Ha
Also got to have a ride in a kit-car Morgan. Very fast and so cool.

Saturday Ben surprised me by taking me to London and on the London Eye and Ferry. It was really lovely and a big surprise.

An amazing feat for someone with vertigo and who can't swim. But the love and romance was more important.

Sunday was busy as Ben was in the band at church and i was in the choir. Then all move as all Nathan & Louisa's furnature was going on monday . So we moved as much as we could.
Coffee at the Jolly's then crash.

Today has been weired & hectic but great. We now have a house with no furnature , but painting has begun.

May this year be full of change, suddenly's and grace.
And i can't wait.

review

2007-01-03T18:10:00.000Z

This year has been full of the biggest highs and some mighty lows. The views and experiences of the best time of this year and my life, Must be my wedding. To the most pacient, understanding and loving man.
It amazes me that God can bring two totally different people together and for it to work.

My life has been turned up-side-down in the best way. And it has defenatly been a rollercoaster.

This draws me to the lows:- fun as they are!, we are getting through with God & Eachother.
Bring on 2007, may it be more fun, exciting and blessed than 2006.

I'm reaching for an inspired and God filled year.

Anyway i was writting to give my review so here goes:-

Best Film/ Movie:- It has to be "Everything is Illuminated."

Best Album:- The String Quartet Tribute to "The Killers".

Best Holiday:- Barcellona.

Best Children's T.v Theme tune of 2006:- It has to be " Charlie & Lola". It's like jazzy lift music. funny and cool.

Well that's all i can think of. Here's striving for the best of 2007. Hopefully with a morgage, still enjoying jobs and no big suprises i.e ( Babies)

Sam

tooth extraction

2007-01-01T17:40:00.000Z

I just wanted to share with you the beauty of my lack of tooth.

Doesn't it look lovely!!!!!. This is after a month and 2 loads of antibiotics. But at last it's healing.

Life

2006-10-25T16:45:00.000+01:00

Holding on, is hard. A struggle even.
But to achieve the goal is worth it always.

Wall climbing is a great testoment to this.
The level 3's are easy, so you move to level 4 to achieve a better goal.
Not realising that it is a big jump from one to the other.

In the picture i was climbing a level 4b i think ( pete can correct me if im wrong).
Anyway i havn't been all summer and it was a struggle.
It frustrated me, took all my will and physical power.
But i Made it.

I'm writting this because i'm struggling at the moment. I can't see the light of the end but i know if i keep going i will reach the top and Make it.

Please pray and keep Ben and myself in your thoughts.

I'm thankfull for:-

God
Ben
Family
Friends
Work
Home
Car
Love
Life
Children
And all the blessings God gives me everyday.

Remember to keep going, never stop. And you will get to the goal. Even if it is a struggle. Keep pushing up, looking for the next hand hold. And you can reach the top.

All my Love

Not already!!!!

2006-10-08T09:24:00.000+01:00

Christmas at the Gray's 2005

I love Christmas:-
family, friends, games, food, excitement, prezzies, carols, midnight mass, surprise and most of all the nativity. ( Thanx play centre)
But i just can't quite believe it, decorations and products are in stores already. In October???
What is going on? The world is losing the reason for celebration and gaining greed and glutony. Yes sharing and giving is wonderful, and one of my favourite things about Christmas. But i'm starting to think that Christmas is becoming a food binge and all about what do i get ( me, me me) that we are missing Christ.

Well that's my rant over:-

I am good and my new job is fantastic. And Married 5 months and loving it.

Hello

2006-08-02T09:00:00.000+01:00

The Luckiest By Ben Folds
Our First Dance song

"I don't get many things right the first time,
infact i am told that alot.
But I know all the wrong turns and stumbles and falls brought me here.

Where was I before the day,
I first saw your lovely face.
Now I see it everyday.

I am, I am, I am
The luckiest.

Being the luckiest!!!!. What does that mean for you?

For me it means having God's grace in all my life, Not the Grace that everyone thinks is free and easy but the Grace that is a choice. When we come in repentance to our Father and stand in his Grace for him to Choose to give me grace or not.

By this I mean that when Jesus died it was more than a choice, it was Grace that put him through all of it and Grace why he decided to go through with it all. He had to make a choice.

I am the luckiest because I have a strong faith, Ben, Guppie ( Mini Cooper), House, Job.
But as the song says:-

"But i know all the wrong turns and stumbles and falls brought me here."

I wouldn't be where i am today with out all the crap in my life, struggles, miss jugments, scary situations and bad dissisions. By god's grace he brought me through it all and taught me alot, through choice.
I thank God for my past. All the struggles and heart ache. I wouldn't have a wonderful husband if the past was different.

Look at life as steping stones, How ever big, hard, complicated.
It is a choice of how to deal with each situation. Which guide you and equip you for the next step.
Remember God has the best and even through all the hard struggles, he brings times of joy and blessing.

Until next time

news

2006-05-30T19:54:00.000+01:00

Hi Guys

Life is great, alot of change, alot of fun.
News ala Mrs Matthews:-

Well as you can see im Mrs Matthews now. Married 3 weeks. And loving it.
Work is going well, new baby aged 4 weeks, full time 50 hours a week.
Sold my car :(
But brought a new car
A MINI COOPER whooh

So all change.

Cooper comes in 2 / 3 weeks and we can't wait.

God is so wonderful , he is blessing us so much.

Thanx for all your prayers, love, support, encouragement and blessing us .
May God bless you so much 10 time more than you have blessed us.

All our love
S & B

Awesome God

2006-04-28T09:27:00.000+01:00

Hi Guys, i know it's been ages since i last wrote.
Well this is what's been happening:-

Ben moved into our new home, which is such a blessing. I can't wait to make it my home too.
Sorting out more wedding stuff, which is nearly done.
Easter
Keeping Ben carm before his stag day.
Help Employer during labour.
Welcome and settle in new baby.
Hen day
Then it's a week to go. I think back and it has taken an age to get to this point but the last 4 weeks have flown by. And i think and pray its all done and will run smoothly.
God is Awesome becaue he has us in his plan and even though we can see the whole picture he can. Ben has a new job , He is working for the same company but now has a job taylored esspecially for him. More money, better prospects.

All my prayers for his job answered. Praise the Lord.

Hope to see you soon, Have a blessed week. Also please pray for health, smooth wedding day, nice weather and that God is glorified throughout our lives.

Knowing you!!!

2006-03-25T21:33:00.000Z

Well I was thinking about who we are and where do we belong.
Alot has happened this week and it's made me think about what God has been teaching me.

Over the last 2 years i have learnt alot about Faith, Foundations, Family, Friends and fellowship. And when it comes down to it, we all need relationships and people who will support us. Pick us up when we fall but also to be accountable with.
God is our father, saviour and awesome God who we can come to by his Grace, whatever our situation or how we feel. Because by his strippes we are healed.

We all fail sometimes, screw up even but God teaches us to support eachother , be there when we are needed. Sometimes we need others to explain situations, because we can't see what is right infrount of our faces.

Be what God is calling you to be. Support, pray, encourage, eachother. God wouldn't leave anyone who has fallen short alone and so we need to shine compassion. To those who need you.

I love you all and value your friendship, May you know how special you all are to me and others. Never think your not worth it because Jesus died just for you because he loves you.

God Bless

Stress

2006-03-10T10:12:00.000Z

Do you know that the 5 most stessful things in life are :-

1) New Job
2) Moving house
3) Having a baby
4) Funnerals
5) Marriage

Not sure what the order of total stress is but those are the most stressful situations.

But God empowers us to deal with different situations and this encludes stress. Even if we think we can't cope.
At the moment i'm feeling the stress levels quite high, as i'm doing 3 of the most stressful things and also finding home life difficult. It's 8 weeks till the wedding, which i'm excited about , but it means growing up, moving out, being all Ben needs me to be.

Am i capable of living up to the task?
YES because God lives in me and through me. He guides my every step even when i feel out of control.
It's good to know , isnt it.

I really feel blessed thought as my new job is going well, and i have poeple that love me.
A friend of mine sent me a pressent this week because God place me on her mind and it was such a blessing. Just to know someone was thinking of me and praying for me.

God made us to have relationships and he knows that we need to know love from others.
Bless someone this week, pray for them and let them know you care. It make a whole lot of difference.

funny pictures 2

2006-03-02T08:10:00.000Z

Another set of funny pictures, Enjoy

Pete

Ali West

Ruth Lush

Dan Lush

funny pictures.1

2006-02-26T19:05:00.000Z

Just a few pictures that i made. I hope you enjoy.
God Bless.

Rich

Jon

Jim

Ben and Sam

Monkey days

2006-02-15T12:18:00.000Z

Just for fun, to remind you that life is fun too.

What if i stumble?

2006-02-09T10:26:00.000Z

What if i stumble?
by DC Talk.

"This one for the people, This one for the Lord,
Why do i simply Serinade the things i must afford,
You can jumble them together,
But conflict still remains,
Holyness is calling in the minst of calling fains.

I see the trust in their eyes
though the sky is falling
they need your love in their lives
all the dought is calling

What if i stumble?
What if i fall.
What if i lose my step,
and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue,
when my walk becomes a crawl?

Father please forgive me, for I can not compose,
The fear that lives within me,
or the rate at which it grows.
struggle has a purpose, on the narrow road you carved.
Why do i dread my trespasses, and believe they may scar.

Do they see the fear in my eye,
are they so reveling,
this time i can not discuise,
all the dought im feeling.

So what if i stumble?
what if i fall?
what if i lose my step,
andI make fools of us all?
will the love continue,
when my walk becomes a crawl?
what if i stumble and what if i fall.

Everyone's gotta crawl, when you know that your up against the wall,
it's about to fall.
Everyone's gotta crawl, when you know that.
Everyone's gotta crawl, when you know that your up against the wall,
it's about to fall.
everyone's gotta crawl,when you know that.

I hear you wispering my name
you said
" My love for you will never change".

Re-read the lirics.
What do they say to you? ring any bells?
It unearth's alot of fear (i believe) :-

What if i'm not good enough?
What if i fail?
Why am I alone?
I'm to guilty!!
What about my finances?
Someone is always better than me, let them do it!!!
What if i can't fill the expectations?
Lifes too hard!!!
I can't do it!!!
Why does this hurt so much?
Why did this happen?
I'm not strong enough!!

We all have these fears and pressures but one thing to know is we need to take it to God.

My challange today is take yourself to God and spend sometime talking to him. Listen. Then let him bring peace, love and restoration in to your life.
The solutions might not be what you expect but God is your father and knows what is best.
Spend some quality time with God and release all your stress, fears, pressures and worries. and let him restore you.

It's about being vunerable , accountable and honourist with yourself and God. He already knows what you are dealing with , but he loves you and wants to talk it over with you.

It's time to break down some of those barriers, that we hide behind and come to God for all we need. It's not easy but it's the only way for our lives to be sorted and to grow stronger in faith.

I have alot of pressure and stress, but coming to God my dad and laying in his arms and peace is all i need, come to God and find your peace too.

God bless and if you stumble God will pick you up and walk with you.

Mah jong

2006-01-31T17:40:00.001Z

How beautiful!!!
I won with a score of:-
3928

Ben, Pete and Ali were shocked,
I was exstatic.

Good game.
Until next time.

God is Good

2006-01-12T10:15:00.000Z

Just writting to remind you all that God is Good.
Even when we have good day and devestating day, God is Good and is always Faithful.

My life seems so up and down at the moment with jobs and wedding prep. But still God is Good. He knows what we need, even before we know what we need.
And he knows what makes us smile

This is my latest picture from my Godson Justin. He is now about 20 months old and in the photo is part of the present i sent him for Christmas.

God is Good as i thought i would never see him again , And now i am building a bond with his family.
All because i gave all my burdens and hearts desires to God and he made it happen in his timing.
God is Good.

Remember what you have prayed before and keep praying . Just know that it is Gods timing and only he knows what is best for us.

New years resolutions!!!

2005-12-31T11:10:00.000Z

New year!!!

Well everyone makes new years resolutions. But what about keeping the promises you have made God?
I'm sure that you as i have, made promises / prayed things and then not followed through. God places things on our hearts to long for, pray for and live out.
What have you put down last year?

This year is so full.
Excitement , stress, busy, change, love and joy. But if your foundations are cracked and failing , it will be harder and more of a struggle than it should.

God is all you need and the new years resolutions should be for him and to him only. He is our foundations and if yours is cracked, try finding your passion and prayer time. Because you can't survive on new years resolutions . ONLY GOD is our salvation, our rock, our strength.

This year for me is exciting but extremely scary. All i know is that if my feet are securely on God and my prayer life and foundations are strong then that is all i need.

Remember that life is short!!!

Live it to the full and know that everything you have and everyone you know is such a blessing. Because it could all be gone tommorrow.
It's tough to hear but we are all called to live the life God has called us to. Which means he could take everything away.
So try to not take things for granted. Because even if he does , we still have God and he is all we need.

On a lighter note:- life at the moment is exciting and full of joy.
Enjoying all God's blessings and living for him with all that i have..

Ali, Rich, Jim, Dave and Rach

All enjoying the blessing of the Burton's hot tub.

Just know that i really love and respect you all. May you know God's heart and blessing this year.

My week.

2005-12-18T21:28:00.000Z

Well I gave Ben his Christmas present. We went to Brixton/ London to see Ben Folds.

On Tuesday 13th Dec

Ben was very surprised and I surprised myself by actually liking it. We had a fantastic day.
And I felt on top of the world.

I feel so blessed by God , as I first had a fantastic day with Ben on Tuesday,

then I got a email from Justin's family. What a blessing.

As you can see, Alot more grown up and very cute. From the last pictures I posted.
It's amazing that i have contact with him now, and have an offer to visit whenever i would like.

God is Awesome.

Then to top it all my brother Pete got engaged to Ali.

I might have a new job too, as I need full time again due to getting married and leaving home. So I have an interview and decision to make on Wednesday. So a busy couple of weeks.

Have a wonderful Christmas and know God's love and blessing through out the year.

Jonboy this one is for you!!!

We went to the Apple shop in London and here is your favorite toy.

This is amazing!!!

2005-11-13T17:57:00.000Z

Well as i have mentioned in my last post i now have a contact with Ebenezer which is wonderful. But the most amazing thing happened two days ago, Well let me start at the begining:-

In the orphanage in south africa i had three babies that i held dear. Their amazing stories, love and abundance of life really moved me and helped me to be thankful for all i have, and all they are.
I fell in love with Ebenezer, Danica my two toddlers and Justin a premeture baby.
I have written about Ebe and Danica, But here is Justin's story:-

Justin was found by police in Johannasburg, Outside an abortion clinic, still attatched to his placenta and umbillical cord.
They took him to the hospital and they weighed him. ( ) . Cleaned him up and placed him in an incubator.
They then rang TLC orphanage , who are the only orphanage who takes in premeture babies in the whole of Johannasburg/Petoria area.
They agreed to take him and Justin was well looked after. He started to progress and grow well.

I arrived in August2003 and during my time a bond was developed. I had the priviledge to be his Godmother and hold him in his baptism. Unfortunatly i left just before he was adopted.

I often pray for him and would write emails to the orphanage to try and get in contact with all three children.

God answered my prayer with Ebenezer and i was in awe but to my suprise i recieved an email from a lady called Anna, who knows Justin's family. She met up with some of the adopted families in Germany and Justin's mum inquired about me . I have no idea how she knew of me let alone my bond with Justin as i have never met her. Anna then emailed me and so now to my amazement i have a email address for Justin. And maybe that bond can one day be rekindled.

I looked back over my emails and found that the last time i inquired about Justin , was 15th Aug 2004. Such along time ago , but God knows the crys of my heart. He answers and knows whats best. Just hang in for what God has placed on your heart.
Just one child to go. Danica sweet Danica may one day i hear you are doing well and maybe meet you again.

Thankyou God for answering even the most impossible prayers. Answering the crys of my heart and holding it close to you.

God answers prayers.

2005-11-07T19:16:00.000Z

My heart is overwelmed with joy at the moment due to answered prayers. I just know that when we pray for something that God answers.
Sometimes we need to remember this , because we sometimes ask for silly things and dont really think about what we pray for.

But God answers even the smallest prayers. Just in his timing.
He knows our hearts and what we need, Like Dan said in his blog ( we need to remind God of promises he has given us and said over our lives. because they will be forfilled.)

Im saying all of this because one of the prayers i have been asking God to answer, He did yesterday. And it was the best thing ever. As in the sence that a hole in my heart can now start healing.

This is Ebenezer in the cap. As ive said in other postings I fell in love with him and when i left and he was adopted my heart cryed. I have never heard from him or even heard of him from other volunteers, Until now.
He had a terible back ground and he never smiled for a year. He started to smile and talk when i was there.

But to have my prayer answered and to see his cheeky face again, Im overwhelmed with emotions.

God is so faithful, he knows the best for us and the best timing. So when you pray make sure you know what your praying for and keep reminding God and he will come through triumphant.

I love this boy and i cant express my joy, relief, love, elation etc

One down and One to go, I will keep praying for Danica until God answers. Don't ever give up on your dreams, hearts desires and passions, just be persistant, patient and Faithful.
God will come through for you and it will be the best.

6 Months to go!!!!!

2005-10-24T15:48:00.000+01:00

Well as the title says it's 6 months to the wedding. It seems that it has taken an age to even get to this point, but if we hadnt had so long then i wouldnt be so relaxed and in control of all the preparations.

The dress comes in a couple of weeks, All is in order and we even managed to go to France for a holiday.

Ben's parents who live in France are really nice and they made it a fun experience but i think the top highlight of the trip was 1) getting on with the inlaws and 2) Monkey world:- which was the best.

Monkey World :- Is fantastic, you walk around with Monkeys running around you. The only protection is from the Apes , due to electrified water. It was the best experience, I loved it.

Also being a christian in a non christian environment i thought was going to be entertaining, in the sence of difficult. But to my surprise i had a indepth converstation with Maddie ( Ben's mum) which i think is God's sense of humor, because even Ben or Gemma havnt had a conversation which included faith, religion, life after death, the spiritual relm. etc

Ben was as shocked as me but we were also very excited. Doesnt God surprise us when we least expect it. He keeps us on our toes and fills us with expectation.

Monkey enjoyed it also, he has great fun on our trips.

Edingburgh June 05

France October 05

But as you can see hes not to good at the traveling part. Either hes miss behaving or hes air sick.

He did have fun and looks farward to his next trip.

The Pains and Blessings of my Heart.

2005-10-07T12:46:00.000+01:00

Danica and Ebenezer. TLC garden 2003

How do you explain the love you have for a child? These two stole my heart, I would have adopted them ( I wish i had adopted them) but i couldnt.

They brought me such delight, blessing, joy, love, understanding and courage.
I love them so much and my heart is sad.
I pray for them everyday, I just wish i could be in contact. To see their smiles again.
They have been adopted which is wonderful, Ebenezer to Germany and Danica to Belgium. But i have a hole in my heart that only they can fill.

God:-
i pray that you protect Nezer and Danica, Put your guardian Angels around them. Teach them your ways and bring peace, love and your holy spirit into their lives everyday.
I thankyou for the love and heart i have for them. I pray that i have made a difference in their lives just as they have in mine.
Hold them close Lord.
Amen.

( Jesus loves me this i know, for the bible tells me so,
Little ones to him belong, they are weak but he is strong.
YES Jesus loves me, Yes Jesus loves me,
YES Jesus loves me, the bible tells me so. )

All my love my sweet Angels.
Sam aka Dan or Dam

The Pains and Blessings of my Heart. 2

2005-10-07T01:10:00.000+01:00

Everyone has blessings and pain:-
I believe all things are known and implemented by God for reason.
My blessings:-

My Faith, church, friends, monkey

and Job.

But your heart in a delecate thing, that has loads of places to hide pain and to disguise it.
We all have things that cause us pain weather it be something weve done, had done to us. Said to us, experienced, seen or heard. It is pain of the soul.

Everyone knows i love children. Also everyone knows i have God's heart for children, and when i bond with a child. I do with God's heart and it is Forever.
So to lose two and not know anything is deverstating, so my soul crys.

But God heals, he soothes the pain and helps you to deal with it and still keep a soft heart.
If i thought i would feel like this every time i looked after chilren i would be a mess and would give up. But God has placed this gift with children and his passion in me to be used to its full potential. To show his love, save the abandoned, sick, unloved and in need children.

So never give up even when its painful because your gifts and dreams are going to be amazing.

Live, Love and Learn.

I will always love Ebenezer and Danica but i wont always hurt thinking of them.

So another insight to the life of Foxy.

Sl8ter

My Life!!

2005-09-28T10:00:00.000+01:00

My life is full of things to do.

I thank God for everyday, As he seems to hold it all together. Making sure it runs smoothly even when we think it is abit rough he carries us through.

I have made a really good friend recentally. Her name is Marlene and i used to look after her baby in the baby room.
She was the lady who braided my hair. Cool isn't it.

Works going really well and i may put up a picture or two if your lucky.
Until then, I have a prayer room to organise for slam and wedding arrangements to do.

Life is made of Ups and Downs

2005-09-25T21:53:00.000+01:00

A Song to begin with:-

"Life is made of ups and downs,
Some times we smile ,
Some times we frown,
But everyday we wear our crown.
Because were kids of the king."

Well as the weeks unfold it becomes apparent that when we look at our lives we become stuck in the present. This song reminds me of how simple life can be when you look at it through a child' eyes.
We have to remember that we have a crown of glory, in heaven that is ours. When we become christians we inherit the kingdom of heaven. A crown of the most beautiful jewels will be ours. My favourite name is Jasper due to it's meaning. ;-

Jasper:- The most beautiful and presious stone in God's armor. In his Crown and Breast plate.

So to be loved and honoured like a Jasper. Is to be the most precious stone. Thats what i wanna be. As beautiful and shiney. And that God's Glory is seen in and through me.

My Green Bay Packers

2005-09-21T19:45:00.000+01:00

I love the Green Bay Packers, Even though they have lost two games this season and one of them was to the browns. ( that sucks ) By only two points but that was enough.

Green Bay are inspiring because the team have a wonderful heart.
When the Flooding happened in New Orleans This is what the Packers did to help:-

People In Mall. Bubba Franks

"Taken From www.NFL.com"

The Green Bay Packers may have just defeated the Tennessee Titans 21-17, but long snapper Rob Davis felt a lump in his heart. Worried about the devestation inflicted by Hurricane Katrina, he went through the locker room, looking for volunteers to aid the relief effort.“We just wanted to make sure we had a presence from the Packers,” Davis said. “We’re trying to help out as best as we can.”The Packers helped out indeed.In conjunction with the American Red Cross, several Packers players signed autographs on Sunday at Bay Park Square Mall in Green Bay, Wis., raising over $16,000 in just two hours to benefit the victims of Hurricane Katrina.Any monetary contribution entitled patrons to an autograph on one item. For a $100 donation, they could visit each of the three autograph tables. They were also encouraged to donate blood at the Red Cross blood drive in the mall.By 12:30p.m., Red Cross officials estimated 500 people had already arrived for autographs and the blood drive had a three-hour wait. “The crowd has blown me away,” said Steve Maricque, executive director of the American Red Cross’ Lakeland chapter. “

Doesn't that inspire you, That some guys from a team would give their time and money for others.

I also love the Packers Due to their support of breast cancer.

Brett Farve the Quarter back has set the team on a mission. His Wife has breast cancer and on a play off game last year he arrived with his hair all shaved off. When asked why he said It's to stand with my Wife and all women who have to go through this.
Ever since then The Green Bay Packers are supporting the Breast cancer foundation and are raising money for it .

Just think how humbling this is, a whole team goes out together to fight for things they believe in.
What do you fight for??.

I will support the Packers till the end.
Sam

What seeds are you sowing??

2005-09-21T18:50:00.000+01:00

Like Dan says on his blog, the family of God is not what people can do for you but what you can do for the family.
But have you thought about the effect your life is having on others. Good or Bad.?? Every conversation, thought, text, your body language, manerizams and jokes. What a big responsibility we have in protecting our family, friends and people around us.

At church were talking about sowing seeds and that what you plant in this generation will be reaped in future generations.
So life isnt about ( if i get drunk every night,) well it's only effecting me anyway. What if you cant stop drinking heavy? The seeds of alchol are affecting you, your friends, family , relationships and your setting a foundation for future generations.

I want to set foundations for my children, that are strong in God, love, understanding, compremize and through Ben and my teaching/ lifestyles.

Isnt it time today to get your life right with God. Ask if you need to sort something out so it doesnt effect the next generation. ( Sex, Drugs, Alchol, Spiritualism, Hate, Bitterness, Mis-trust, Divorce issues, depression, porn etc) even if you only did it once or didn't even go the whole way but looked into it.

Because you know you can be free of these things , it also says in the bible to cut the ties to stop anything affecting future generations. Don't be burdened by stuff that isnt yours to carry anymore. Because Jesus dies to take all this away.

Sorry guys very heavy thoughts today which you proberbly already know but it inspired me to keep a check on what i do, say and think about others and how i lead my life.
Just know that i'm thinking and praying for you all.

sl8ter

Life always looks greener on the other side!!!

2005-09-17T16:29:00.000+01:00

Doesn't life always look greener on the other side? Isn't there always a thought that something else is better if you haven't got it??

Well ive learnt a valuable lesson this week, don't miss what's right infrount of you as you might miss it.
Life is made up of ups and downs, and somebody elses life always looks better, . Ben and I had a big dissagreement and i got to thinking that everyone elses relationships never went through arguements. And that it was the end of the world. But It was all a load of crap as everyone looks at what they don't have and thinks its better.

After talking and making up , i wouldn't change my life and relationship for anything, as i have the best. God has really humbled and molded me this week.
I was brocken but now im whole and loving it.
My faith is stronger, Trust grown, More understanding and not so selfish ( i hope)

Prayer works, When arguing i prayed all night and God answered.

New beginings!!!

2005-09-13T18:25:00.000+01:00

I just thought you might wanna know that i have a job now, after loads of praying, Faith, direction and conversation.

Im Self Employed. As a Nanny.

It's harder than i thought but good as i can choose if i wanna work or not, but i have to remember money only comes in if i do.
Such a blessing and my two families at the moment are wonderful. Thanx God for sorting this out and Ben for all your help.
God bless

My Boys!!

2005-09-09T19:05:00.000+01:00

From Left To Right
Stevie, Ben, Matt.s, Pete, Adam, Dan,
Matt.j, Rich, Owz, Jonboy and Dave

My boys!!
A quote i use often. I've been blessed with such good friends, who support and encourage me. Where would i be without you guys. Weve got some amazing memories and loads to come. Weddings, New jobs, even babies ( Scary thought).
My question to you is :-
Who will be last to get married?
I will leave u with this thought. Thanx guys for all you are and do. May God really bless you.

Birthdays

2005-09-05T17:25:00.000+01:00

Well another year, another birthday. This year has been such a rollercoaster.

This time last year i was single And still working as a nanny for the England's.

Lets recap:- Last year i had arranged to go to the Lamb pub, Rustington for a few birthday drinks. Quite a few people came with some unexpected one's. I ended up talking to Ben, trying to findout who he is and who's friend brought him along. The conversation didn't stop all night to my surprise.

Then two weeks later i had a phone call asking if i would like to go to the Black Rabbit pub in Arundel for Ben's birthday drinks. But when i arrived one person was there, "not Ben" but someone that i felt a little uncomfortable with. After ringing all the mobile numbers i could to find out if they were coming or was this a set up. A mini bus arrived with alot of people to save me.

The night ended up being Ben and myself talking . And The other person trying to get in on every conversation. We all went back to Ben's to play pool. And to my surprise , i hadn't noticed but i was the last to leave.

two days and alot of talking later I had a boyfriend. Now A husband to be.

This has changed my whole understanding of the bigger picture.

My whole perspective of life is that We can only see a corner piece of a massive tapestry. It is so intricate and detailed that we can't even imagine what the whole picture looks like. But that corner piece is our lives and the detail is our achievements and struggles. Even when we think our life isn't gonna get better or change , just remember that God sees the whole Tapestry.
He knew Ben was there in the next piece of my Tapestry and i had to wait for it to be revealed.
Isn't God amazing, He knew that if i had met Ben before now that it wouldn't be the best for us both. In his gentle way he guides us to the next stage in our lives.

Passion

2005-09-03T03:00:00.000+01:00

Well as some of you know i went to Grapevine in Lincon, as a punter. Well my whole understanding of my Faith has changed as God gave me a revelation.
I went to 8 meetings and through all the different speakers, from all around the world. God told the same message with out giving them any guide lines. Cool hay!!!

This is what he said :-
That Each of us are made for Greatness. That it's not what we do but WHO WE ARE that counts. This also counts for God. That we should'nt be worshipping him only for what we can get out of him. But because he is God and that is all.
Worship is 3 things that we need to do and live out in order to give God the glory he deserves. :-

1) Willing :- Being willing is to get yourself in a place with God that when he says worship , its acting even when it seems tough.
2) Obedience :- To worship even is our hardest situations. To worship not for our sakes/ advantage but because God is God.
3) Sacrifice:- Sometimes we find ourselves in places of desert and in jobs, relationships, friendships and situations where we cant cope easily. But God says worship me even when you dont feel like it.

So as you can see God is re- molding my heart and chalanging my worship understanding. Due to music being not for me but for God. So go life styles. It's time to re think our understanding of why we worship. Is it for what we want i'e Healing, Holy spirit etc or is it for God and if he comes to dwell with us then that's a blessing.

All my love
Sam

Hello Everyone

2005-09-03T01:56:00.000+01:00

Hello everyone, I thought i'd join the trend and keep you up to date on my thought's and happenings in my life as i know it.